When I was little, I spent a lot of my summer’s at my aunts house in central Florida. There were a bunch of us that seemed to wind up together, I don’t know exactly how that came about, but we always did somehow. My other aunts kids; Jan, Gail, Becky and the baby Kelly, were a part of our little gathering and all of us together totaled nine. Eleven if you included our other two cousins; Reggie and his sister Georgia.
When our family reunion came around, we were the rat pack. That bunch of kids that ran around together and entertained all of the adults. It was fun growing up in the south, we were a rowdy bunch of little people and tough as nails. We might fall down and skin a knee, but that never was much concern for any of us, we would pick ourselves up and keep on going. Fun was around every corner, adventure was just a short distance away and we were always full of mischief. My grandma was always the ever watchful person that she was, and kept us in line.
When you are young and full of energy as we were, it seemed as there wasn’t enough time in the day for all that we did. We did however have discipline and were not run-away little brats. We had good parents and good up-bringing. We were raised as Christian children in the Baptist Church. My family has always been people of faith and for that I am very grateful. The cornerstone of our lives has through the years been one of faith and hope, with that comes; charity. I think that those three words pretty much spell out how everyone could find peace in their lives, if you can just keep those simple ideals in your heart.
Growing up was easy for me, and the transformation to adult life was made simpler by the life that I had come to know and love. Sure, I have made plenty of mistakes along the way, but I have tried to learn from them and am now at a point in my life where I can look back at all that I experienced in my childhood and it brings out some of my biggest smiles, even on a dreary day. The days that we as kids spent together on a hot July afternoon, with a cold slice of watermelon, trying to be the one who could spit a seed the farthest and all of the laughter that ensued are pleasant memories for me. Simple things like that will almost always brighten my day.
So why do things sometimes go so tragically wrong with our children these days? This past year one of my cousin’s daughter’s decided that life was not worth living anymore and at the young age of twenty-three, decided that she would end her life. She was successful in school and well liked, had a good family and never wanted for much. Her family was very loving and they spent a lot of time together as a family. Her parents never saw this coming. Her mother is a wonderful lady and still grieves very much for her daughter.
Two days ago, my baby cousin that I grew up with, part of our group of eleven, received a text message from her son, that simply said; “I’m sorry.” Her sister received the same text message. Several hours later, my uncle and my cousin found him in the woods, in the front seat of his truck. He had taken his own life. My sister in Illinois received news of this, from my aunt and called me. I was stunned. I knew this boy. He was twenty years old. He had just finished technical school and was about to go on his second interview for a job that he had recently applied for. He would have turned twenty-one, this month. He was the nicest kid that you would ever want to know. Once again, no one saw this coming. He did have a few problems as a child, but all seemed to be okay on the outside.
The funeral service is Saturday afternoon. How do you bury your twenty year old son? I asked my wife that tonight. I thought of my own son, he just turned twenty-five. He is my entire life. I tell him every day, that I love him. I tell him all of the time, that if there is anything that he needs, just ask. If something were to happen to him, it would be unbearable for me. Then I think about my cousin, who not long ago, was just a child herself. Like a sister to me. Things were so simple then.
My sister said that something good will come out of this. Maybe so. Today I asked several people who I know, how old their children were. I told them that when they get home this evening, to gather them up close and hold them. Tell them that they love them and remind them of that every day. Nothing in this life is certain.
I’m going to a funeral Saturday. For a twenty year old boy. I will watch my cousin cry. I do not know what I will say to her. I will probably hold her and cry also. My son will be with me and I will tell him again, how much that I love him.
















